Forty Four

‘……oh I don’t know Abbie. I just think I’ve wasted all the love I had to give on people who weren’t interested in me and now I’m only capable of loving dogs’.
There.
‘Don’t be silly’.
‘I’m not’.
Pips? PIPS? LOOK!
‘What George? Oh dear, has your ball fallen in the canal? OK I’ll get it. There you go……….. I mean maybe we only have a certain amount of love in each of us and if we squander it then… you know, that’s it, there’s no more’.
‘I’ve never thought of it like that’.
‘I don’t know if I’m capable of falling in love again’.
There.
‘That’s ridiculous Philippa. Of course you will’.
Pips? PIPS?
‘Yes George? It’s fallen in the water again has it? OK……. There we go.
I think there’s perhaps something wrong with me. Other people seem to falls in love every two minutes’.
‘It never lasts though does it? George will probably last longer than any relationship’.
‘Yes, he probably will….’.
There.
‘I just don’t know if we’re meant to keep falling in and out of love for our whole lives. It seems so much effort’
‘Well maybe that’s all love is at the end of the day. I mean, you know, making an effort’.
Pips? PIPS LOOK!
‘Yes George? Not again. Be a bit more careful… There we are ….. ………In which case if I can’t be bothered to make an effort then I’ve become loveless haven’t I?’
‘Can we end this conversation Philippa? You’re making me depressed’.
‘But it’s true though isn’t it? Oh God I just don’t know what it’s all about. I’m confused. And Simon and Lisa have split up’.
‘Really?’
There.
‘Not that I’m surprised but that’s the problem. Everything always ends as predicted’.
Pips?
‘I suppose it’s no big deal. He’ll have found someone else in two months because he always does/’
PIPS?
‘and it will only last a year because they always do/’
PIPS?
‘so I suppose I just wonder what is the point? Is he learning anything? Are any of us learning anything from any of it?’
PIPS? LOOK!
‘No George, I’m not fishing your ball out again. That’s enough’.
‘Oh Philippa don’t be mean’.
‘The same accident does not happen four times in a row. He’s dropping it in there’.
‘So what? It’s his game’.
‘Well I’m fed up of playing’.